Alone or lonelines; solo o soledad

From a pandemic quarantine to a city-wide curfew and national guards, to a beautiful sunny day and not one person to go do something with. I am taking it as God telling me to communicate more in the spirit. Was able to have a 14 year old birthday party last week, lost a family friend, to dinner at what used ti be my favorite seafood clash, mom's 82nd birthday. Her, my daughter (gma's bnb twin, and me ride up and down the highway). Sparked the idea of a day trip ... well, it happened for them but here I am netflixing and napping with the critters and myself. So, here I am, on the verge of having to deal with loneliness or getting productive. I got it! A small nap, then up to work.

Desde una cuarentena pandémica hasta un toque de queda en toda la ciudad y guardias nacionales, hasta un hermoso día soleado y ninguna persona con quien ir a hacer algo. Lo estoy tomando como Dios diciéndome que me comunique más en el espíritu. La semana pasada pude celebrar una fiesta de cumpleaños de 14 años, perdí a un amigo de la familia y cené en lo que solía ser mi choque favorito de mariscos, el 82 cumpleaños de mi madre. Ella, mi hija (la gemela bnb de gma y yo subimos y bajamos por la carretera). Desencadenó la idea de un viaje de un día ... bueno, sucedió para ellos, pero aquí estoy haciendo netflix y durmiendo la siesta con los bichos y yo. Entonces, aquí estoy, a punto de tener que lidiar con la soledad o ser productivo. ¡Lo tengo! Una pequeña siesta, luego hasta el trabajo.

In Resting I Find Accomplishments

It never fails, when I say I am resting, I start to piddle and paddle. I go down my To Do Lists. I find myself playing, "catch up." Then eventually its called, "Ahead!"

Yes, actually I am ahead for the week so I can take paying work. Bamm! Accomplished work and chores, while resting and relaxing. It can not get any better than that.

Frame of thought? Distressed,  maybe? Comfortable v overwhelmness? Makes a huge difference.

I meet my goals. I help myself through helping others. I make money to make life a bit more comfortable. Credit card bills, paying too much interests. There has got to be away to stop this cycle before it even starts.

Research loop holes in laws, amendments, etc. Not only for me; yet for others I care about.

Bring GS Cookie Sales to end and GS Yearly Financials before hand. On and on, I could go. NOT! I choose to focus on things I can do.

New to MOI- Expanding Languages to French and Portuguese.  Wonderful, romantic languages.

Love, love, love!
Mama Gee

Why do I feel torn?

Happy Sunday, my day starts out. Coffee, animal and personal care goes well. The tweens are even ready in time for church. The message and socializing is all I need. I told the tweens to eat with everyone while I attended a Healing Session. The love and energy from everyone particpating really works. I felt great. Even walked down the steps with my cane on my arm. Ok, so I'm in Euphoria and relief of some pain. Well, then back into reality. The kiddo and an old friend I'd been talking to are going nuts on me. Trying to blame me for their bad feelings on other decisions that do not even include me. So, what is the problem? What is my part in all this? I just don't get it. Block, delete and sit in my car instead of entering my house, o, yeh right, I am to give give give without replenishing myself? I think not. Anyway, I have plans and I am not going to let anyone, not even myself, into not following my dreams. Yeh, right? God, me, then family, then work, then others? I think that is the best priority list I have had in along time. Blessings and Happy Valentines, if I don't blog about it.

OH, The Politics in Medical Care

Drive 2 cities over because the insurance company does not want to be accountable to the worker's compensation commission that has the power to hold them accountable. OK, so at least there are medical records available. How to find the legal representation needed to get the commissioners attention. Prayers, please, the pain is almost as bad as it was in the beginning of all this trauma.

Personal Evolution ...

TBIs and residual outcomes from multiple concusions, oh, not to mention the NDE June 2018 robbing my brain and body of necessary oxygen to return to my base level is like being in a toddler's development yet in a 50 + year old body. WOW! The wonder of redeveloping. I am definitely receiving better and better understanding of elderly living. I want to keep myself and capacities as strong as possible so I may still be able to assist others in no matter what state this earthly body resorts too. I believe our words and repetitive affirmations and denials do give us the position of Co-Creator with our almighty Creator, God, name used by 80% of the world's population. Staying in touch on a daily basis with myself and The Christ in my heart, as long as I Stop, Listen, Pray, Listen, receive, procede with my behavioral responses then I am still active, functional, and participating in my own life's choices. So, I may be changing ways I communicate. If it appears wierd, it probably is! (:) Yet, I will continue to try to communicate as people are Interested. This is another thing; some people think by acknowledging my thought shared, or opinion, on whatever topic they bring up ... well, sometimes a simple, "I understand. I am listening. Let it out. I gotcha'." Yes, acknowledgement of being heard being the catch factor here. So, I have been painfully mused into working with creative processes of what I still have to work with. Reshape, reframe the thoughts and behaviors that help me reach my ultimate goals is where I am. So, if I am acting zombified, do not worry; I am only in a state of prayer, meditation, and creativity for myself to learn better, or unlearn to relearn what it is I am being called to do. If you read this far, thank you. Lots of love to all my earthly angels, muses, and teachers/students...this is what we do, right? Evolve? Especially mentally and spiritually. Namaste. Praise God. Shalom. Blessings. Blessed Be...Amen!

LOVE: Verb or Feeling? - AMOR: El Verbo o El Sientimiento?

LOVE
L lingering
O omnipotent
V vivacious
E exercise/entity
(ReGina Mason, 2019)

3 major types: Eros (romantic), Phylio (physical), Agape (God).

7 categories of LOVE relationships:

Agape - unconditional love, divine love, above and beyond self;

Eros - romantic love, the "in love" with another person feeling, broken into so many other categories in it's own theme;

Philia- fisical, physical, sexual, a part of affectionate love;
Philautia- self-love, self-care, physical, agape, eros, respect;

Storge- familiar love, a relationship that you have been in before, with or without, the same partner, scared of change because you know the consequences and rewards of this type of familiarity;

Pragmatic- Enduring love, no matter the outcome this love is similar to both agape and storg love. Can share space with other types of love? Sure. All these loves can be felt at the same time with certain people. Is that, "when it really works" for that particular couple?

Ludus- playful love ...

Mania - obsessive love ... could
This really be healthy? Not in the long haul. Strike agape, eros turns into fear, storg into another fear, maybe of self? Or could it be so enjoyable and bonding that not many people can experience; however, one sway away from ethical and or moral concepts just may ignite unhealthy chosen behaviors?

Reference:
lifehacks.org retrieved digitally on Nov 9, 2019.
This article is protected by copyright under Author, ReGina Mason, of MOI INT'L.
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AMOR L persistente Oh omnipotente V vivaz E ejercicio / entidad (ReGina Mason, 2019) 3 tipos principales: Eros (romántico), Phylio (físico), Agape (Dios). 7 categorías de relaciones de AMOR: Ágape: amor incondicional, amor divino, más allá de uno mismo; Eros: amor romántico, el sentimiento de "enamorado" de otra persona, dividido en tantas otras categorías en su propio tema; Filiares, físicos, sexuales, una parte del amor cariñoso; Philautia: amor propio, cuidado personal, físico, ágape, eros, respeto; Storge: amor familiar, una relación en la que has estado antes, con o sin la misma pareja, con miedo al cambio porque conoces las consecuencias y recompensas de este tipo de familiaridad; Pragmático: amor duradero, sin importar el resultado, este amor es similar al amor ágape y storg. ¿Puede compartir espacio con otros tipos de amor? Seguro. Todos estos amores se pueden sentir al mismo tiempo con ciertas personas. ¿Es eso "cuando realmente funciona" para esa pareja en particular? Ludus- amor juguetón ... Mania - amor obsesivo ... podría ¿Esto realmente es saludable? No a largo plazo. Golpear ágape, eros se convierte en miedo, storg en otro miedo, ¿tal vez uno mismo? ¿O podría ser tan agradable y un vínculo que no muchas personas puedan experimentar? Sin embargo, si uno se aleja de los conceptos éticos y morales, ¿puede encender comportamientos elegidos poco saludables? Referencia: lifehacks.org recuperado digitalmente el 9 de noviembre de 2019. Este artículo está protegido por derechos de autor bajo el autor, ReGina Mason, de MOI INT'L.