Lies or Changes/Menteras o Cambias

You say I lied. It was insignificant so you did not say anything. One day I said one thing another day something else. Thank you for agreeing to confront me if I do lie. 

Please, please I do not believe there are reasons for lying. No need at all. I've searched my soul, no need to lie. I've searched my actions, again no need to lie.

So, I lied to you? What is it you want to tell me? I am really messed up over this one. Please, please promise to tell me if this ever happens again. I do not want to lie. We have nothing if our relationship is lies.

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Dices que mentí.  Fue insignificante por lo que no dijiste nada.  Un día dije una cosa, otro día otra cosa.  Gracias por aceptar confrontarme si miento.

 Por favor, por favor, no creo que haya motivos para mentir.  No es necesario en absoluto.  He buscado en mi alma, no hay necesidad de mentir.  He buscado mis acciones, de nuevo no hay necesidad de mentir.

Entonces, ¿te mentí?  ¿Qué es lo que quieres decirme?  Realmente estoy arruinado por esto.  Por favor, prometa decirme si esto vuelve a suceder.  No quiero mentir  No tenemos nada si nuestra relación es mentira.

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Options, cheating, or ability to make decisions in our lives

 So, you are an open person. Love everyone. Like a few. 3 people step forward as wanting to see if we are capatible as significant others. The two just put a claim on you. Yhe third wants to pur has enough discipline to show logic of the reality whether or not compatible, the other ius shows his interest to be you and him as significant others. Which would appeal to you more? 

For me, I like the posession of being in a relationship; even more so, the logic of waiting to try out the compatibiliry issues. More suspense? Yea! But the chemistry, love, ability to work and grow together is far more healthier for the both of us.

Its a no brainer. The Libra wins.

Thanks for the vent.

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Alone or lonelines; solo o soledad

From a pandemic quarantine to a city-wide curfew and national guards, to a beautiful sunny day and not one person to go do something with. I am taking it as God telling me to communicate more in the spirit. Was able to have a 14 year old birthday party last week, lost a family friend, to dinner at what used ti be my favorite seafood clash, mom's 82nd birthday. Her, my daughter (gma's bnb twin, and me ride up and down the highway). Sparked the idea of a day trip ... well, it happened for them but here I am netflixing and napping with the critters and myself. So, here I am, on the verge of having to deal with loneliness or getting productive. I got it! A small nap, then up to work.

Desde una cuarentena pandémica hasta un toque de queda en toda la ciudad y guardias nacionales, hasta un hermoso día soleado y ninguna persona con quien ir a hacer algo. Lo estoy tomando como Dios diciéndome que me comunique más en el espíritu. La semana pasada pude celebrar una fiesta de cumpleaños de 14 años, perdí a un amigo de la familia y cené en lo que solía ser mi choque favorito de mariscos, el 82 cumpleaños de mi madre. Ella, mi hija (la gemela bnb de gma y yo subimos y bajamos por la carretera). Desencadenó la idea de un viaje de un día ... bueno, sucedió para ellos, pero aquí estoy haciendo netflix y durmiendo la siesta con los bichos y yo. Entonces, aquí estoy, a punto de tener que lidiar con la soledad o ser productivo. ¡Lo tengo! Una pequeña siesta, luego hasta el trabajo.

In Resting I Find Accomplishments

It never fails, when I say I am resting, I start to piddle and paddle. I go down my To Do Lists. I find myself playing, "catch up." Then eventually its called, "Ahead!"

Yes, actually I am ahead for the week so I can take paying work. Bamm! Accomplished work and chores, while resting and relaxing. It can not get any better than that.

Frame of thought? Distressed,  maybe? Comfortable v overwhelmness? Makes a huge difference.

I meet my goals. I help myself through helping others. I make money to make life a bit more comfortable. Credit card bills, paying too much interests. There has got to be away to stop this cycle before it even starts.

Research loop holes in laws, amendments, etc. Not only for me; yet for others I care about.

Bring GS Cookie Sales to end and GS Yearly Financials before hand. On and on, I could go. NOT! I choose to focus on things I can do.

New to MOI- Expanding Languages to French and Portuguese.  Wonderful, romantic languages.

Love, love, love!
Mama Gee

Why do I feel torn?

Happy Sunday, my day starts out. Coffee, animal and personal care goes well. The tweens are even ready in time for church. The message and socializing is all I need. I told the tweens to eat with everyone while I attended a Healing Session. The love and energy from everyone particpating really works. I felt great. Even walked down the steps with my cane on my arm. Ok, so I'm in Euphoria and relief of some pain. Well, then back into reality. The kiddo and an old friend I'd been talking to are going nuts on me. Trying to blame me for their bad feelings on other decisions that do not even include me. So, what is the problem? What is my part in all this? I just don't get it. Block, delete and sit in my car instead of entering my house, o, yeh right, I am to give give give without replenishing myself? I think not. Anyway, I have plans and I am not going to let anyone, not even myself, into not following my dreams. Yeh, right? God, me, then family, then work, then others? I think that is the best priority list I have had in along time. Blessings and Happy Valentines, if I don't blog about it.

OH, The Politics in Medical Care

Drive 2 cities over because the insurance company does not want to be accountable to the worker's compensation commission that has the power to hold them accountable. OK, so at least there are medical records available. How to find the legal representation needed to get the commissioners attention. Prayers, please, the pain is almost as bad as it was in the beginning of all this trauma.